Saturday, January 17, 2009
its finally over. for all the pain that was experienced, its time to say goodbye. (:
i know you dont deserve all these torments. im sorry that you had to go through all these for the good of me. there is only one word to describe how i feel towards you now,
SORRY
if only you didnt bother about my well-being and left me in the lurch from the start, if only you gave up.
if only i can take back time, i would have chosen to be cruel to myself and not allow you to do that.
you did it for my good, but you had to go through all these. im really sorry. i really am.
i really hated myself for being such a burden to you. im sorry. i thought i could do it, but in the end, i couldnt, and you had to take the fall together with me.
when things happen, there is no turning back. i guess i need to be more futurelistic when i make decisions, cos it will affect others too.
i really treasure the people i have now. a short "how are you" or just a "hello" means a lot to me. (:
probably a month more to end it all. and i am going to move on to the next phase of life, maybe it might be better as my qualities are that i am someone who can do practical works but am weak at things like studying. to those who have been through the different stages of education together with me, i treasure and will remember those times. im probably putting all these to an end, and enter the world of reality and cruelity.
dinner tmr at bob's place! missed last year's. i dont wanna miss this year's. so, i got to rush my presentation for monday. but its worth it. (:
i finished typing this entry at 4:23 PM
