Wednesday, November 07, 2007
小学篱芭旁的蒲公英是记忆里有味道的风景午睡操场传来蝉的声音多少年后也还是很好听将愿望折纸飞机寄成信因为我们等不到那流星认真投决定命运的硬币却不知道到底能去哪里一起长大的约定那样清晰 打过勾的我相信说好要一起旅行 是你如今唯一坚持的任性在走廊上罚站打手心我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓我去到哪里你都跟很紧很多的梦在等待着进行
这街上太拥挤太多人有秘密玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去你脸上的情绪 在还原那场雨这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里这日子不再绿 又斑驳了几句剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里电影院的座椅 隔遥远的距离感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于描述我如何爱你 你却微笑的离我而去这感觉已经不对 我努力在挽回一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协是我忽略你不过要人陪这感觉已经不对我最后才了解一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配
This is going to be yet another emo post so you can choose to stop here if you don’t want your mood to be affected or if you cant be bothered. Yet again, I don’t know what to blog about. Anyway, Jay’s songs are nice to me. Couple of songs really can make me emo and some has meanings of what I am feeling or are in. I really don’t know when things will start to change for me but it doesn’t seem any soon. I really don’t understand why bad things have to come all at a go, while good things just don’t seem to be found in my dictionary. Recently have been thinking if I am being myself or am I just trying to be someone that people want me to be. I have been faking smiles when I am actually tearing real deep inside. I wonder what value to I have in this world, what value do I have in people’s life. Apparently, I think I am insignificant to anyone. Just read a mail which differentiates a simple friend and a real friend, some things said are true.
A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself and doesn't feel even the least bit weird shutting your 'beer/Pepsi drawer' with her/his foot!
A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend shoulder is soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.
A simple friend hates it when you call after they've gone to bed.A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it!A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.A real friend calls you after you had a fight. A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!
Really something to ponder upon. Especially the one in bold. I know I do expect a lot from others but I also played my part, but who appreciates it? Oh well, life still has to go on.
I am back to my torture chamber after running away for 5 days. Raw eggs and more raw eggs. Hate it when the egg yolk burst, whenever I think of it I really almost puke, which includes this very moment. What to do? No money, no nice body, want nice shape, go for cheap dirt stuff. Maybe one day I might eat humans when I am used to anything in the world, so beware.
I must learn to appreciate and treasure those around me now, now that they are still there, one day they might be gone. Please treasure me too, I might be gone anytime, who knows. When I am gone, please rejoice in secret, don’t do it publicly please.
i finished typing this entry at 11:07 PM
