Saturday, November 10, 2007
My body really doesn’t like me lor, I swear! I have been working out pretty hard recently but the effect is unnoticeable but my body is really aching like no tomorrow. Routine of at least 3 sets of 3 exercises are done before a 150 pushups (not continuous la, I not that fit), but it doesn’t seem to work. Well, my idol is still the same person and I only aim to get probably one-fifth of his body is good enough, anyway for your info, his biceps and triceps adds up to the size of my thigh. I showed scallop his picture and he was disgusted, following that, my cell phone hanged and he said it was cos that guy was too disgusting. Haha.
Previously, I tried to use the method of emptying my mind to get rid of all my problems but it didn’t work. Now I am really glad that it didn’t work; it is really scary! I might have gone crazy if it worked. I used to have times where my mind will blank out all of the sudden and my mind totally turns into darkness. When I regain conscious, I looked at the surroundings and my hands and start thinking who I am and why am I here and in this form as a human. This will go on for around 5 mins before I regain my normal state of mind and it really will give a chill down my spine. During that short period of time, I will think of why am I a human, and if humans really exist, why out of nowhere in the darkness, there are humans, why I can see myself, what are those things around me etc. After regaining conscious, I will be there staring into space thinking what happened and it takes a while before I go back to my normal self. Scary!
Sorry guys if I am not myself lately. I am in kind of a mess in my life and my mind now. Sorry for the inconvenience caused. I will be “back” soon, renewed.一起长大的约定 那样清晰
打过勾的我相信
i finished typing this entry at 11:18 PM
