2 papers down.. 1 more to go.. ICBE! for all those rare people who are concerned about how my papers are so far.. i can only say.. i have disappointed you.. the paper owned me.. i was owned.. i am not being pesismistic but i think i will fail.. just praying hard that the teacher will see my name and pass me by closing both their eyes.. i am not sad that i failed.. i failed to prepare, so i am prepared to fail.. =)

anyway i wanna thank kelvin for spending so much time and vomitting so much blood teaching me.. and i really forgot that there is such a thing called integration till 2 hour before my paper.. and for all the pek chek-ness that i caused in you, really wanna thank you from the bottom of my heart.. i was really mean when he was teaching me.. i was damn pek chek with my stupidity and lost my temper at times when he was so patiently teaching me.. for all that, thank you kelvin..

i am feeling so down right now.. i myself can't figure it out why i am feeling this way too..

anyway.. thank you justine for that description of me.. you are the one and only person who has replied and i think you will also be the only one.. thanks!!
this "exercise" showed it a lot of things about me.. it really showed me where i stand in this society.. it shows where i stand in people's life.. its ok.. i understand and i accept the minute significance of my presense in people's life.. to those who didnt reply to that, its ok.. i dont blame you.. really.. =) though i might not be important to you but all of you are important to me..

52th POP is going on now.. a new batch of officers are born.. i dont wanna judge how they are but i am really disappointed in where the core is heading.. i have no further pride in wearing my uniform and rank.. totally no pride.. missed my UDI days.. missed my CSM 2WO TIANG, DC 2LT SHAWN, district spec 3SG STEVE, UDI trainers SCLT adil, sukhbir, kevin poh etc.. that is what i have pride in.. and not forgetting RSM 1WO nalathamby with his brown beret and pace stick.. i missed those old days.. i miss old pals like xiao xiong, jackson, ian.. so many misses, 1 fact.. those days are over and can never be the same again.. =(



















i am happily with her.. =)