many things happened yesterday.. sad things.. real sad.. disappointment.. awkwardness.. trust is gone.. and now.. i am standing alone now after 3 years..

i know i am not well-liked in this world.. my presense is not significant at all in people's lives..

anyways.. was not in a good mood so i went to run.. made quite a good improvement from the last time.. 21 mins to 12 mins.. it was really shocking when i looked at the clock at the stadium and i thought it was 17mins.. but when i counted properly it was 12 only.. i was thinking of all the songs that really motivated me.. AIRBORNE songs, all the songs that will really push me on.. i really hope to get my airborne and diver badge..







what can be more pretigious than having this 2 badges? wearing it is another issue.. extra $200 each for something that i can get before i enlist.. i mean not for the money la.. its about the pride, honour and glory.. i really admire a girl who got this 2 badges in just 1 year! she is one year younger than me somemore.. too fit le la.. haha.. if only i got these 2 and a PDS badge.. wooo.. go BMT with this 3 badges when i think the CO who is a colonel also dont have all 3 ah.. haha.. he probably got 1 only.. haha..

should i skip CATS today? it is so boring la.. skip CATS then go SnW.. but next week assessment 1 is due le.. half of my grades will be from there.. how?